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[00:23.580]Smiling on the outside but trouble brews within
[00:27.240]If only you knew how dark that it gets
[00:29.130]I've got it all figured out right
[00:31.560]But I'm haunted by sin
[00:33.090]Choices I made that won't let me live
[00:35.730]My house is filled with everything I want from wall to wall
[00:39.300]I'd give it all back to hear my daughter talk
[00:42.060]Evil autism left me with the deepest scar
[00:44.820]It's taking everything I got not to fall apart
[00:48.120]And when I'm at my best I feel I'm falling off
[00:51.120]Depression creeping in and messing with the bars
[00:53.700]Sometimes I stay in the house and I don't leave at all
[00:56.250]That's also when I create best I'm feeling torn
[01:00.120]When I'm at my best I feel I'm falling off
[01:02.970]Depression creeping in and messing with the barssometimes I stay in the house and I don't leave at all
[01:08.100]That's also when I create best I'm feeling torn
[01:11.610]I guess you can say I made it out
[01:13.320]With trust issues I helped people never the other way around suffered in silence I didn't make a sound
[01:20.730]I guess it's my fault for never reaching out
[01:23.700]I still cop Henny and crush the whole bottle
[01:26.340]Some look up to me but I am not your role model
[01:29.520]I don't got all the answers I got my own problems
[01:32.070]There's a lot of business I prefer to keep my nose out of
[01:35.280]My son is 17 now real life is just starting
[01:38.160]The scary thing is his love for money just like his father
[01:41.220]I can't help but feel that something I'm a big part of
[01:44.100]I know he heard the stories I pray he doesn't get caught up
[01:47.250]In the lifestyle
[01:48.180]Judge me by what I'm doing right now
[01:50.640]I showed you legal money could buy a house
[01:53.010]Relieved a lot of pressure when I put that life down
[01:56.040]It's not easy but I sacrifice proud
[01:58.770]My thoughts go beyond working just to pay the rent
[02:01.980]I make my boss a quarter mill I see 12
[02:04.140]You think that I appreciate it looking at how well I livebut I can't help but want more is it selfishness
[02:11.160]When I'm at my best I feel I'm falling off
[02:13.980]Depression creeping in and messing with the bars
[02:16.710]Sometimes I stay in the house and I don't leave at all
[02:19.590]That's also when I create best I'm feeling torn
[02:23.070]When I'm at my best I feel I'm falling off
[02:25.830]Depression creeping in and messing with the bars
[02:28.530]Sometimes I stay in the house and I don't leave at all
[02:31.080]That's also when I create best I'm feeling torn
[02:34.410]Becoming successful can be stressful thoughts get dark you find yourself in a cesspool
[02:40.380]Quittings not an option because you know what that gets you
[02:43.050]The ceiling don't exist there's more levels to get to
[02:46.320]Sometimes you lack confidence that's how I get to
[02:49.290]Look no further the answer is always within you
[02:52.260]Lessons learned we persevere through the knowledge
[02:54.840]There's never been a problem that I couldn't conquer
[02:57.660]Hardest battles to his strongest soldiers never doubt it
[03:00.660]The forecast will pass when you feel your vision is cloudy
[03:04.410]Sometimes I close my eyes and I remember jail
[03:06.990]It was overcrowded I slept on the floor in my cell
[03:10.140]It was short time but that year made me feel
[03:12.630]I had to change for good and I did that so I prevail
[03:16.290]You never know how strong you are until being strong is all you have then you realize it was in you all along
[03:22.320]I know my family is here for me so it's God above
[03:24.990]I'm a work in progress all I need is love
[03:27.870]So now when I'm at my best I know it's just that
[03:30.630]All my pain is gone I left it all on this track